Being who you are…
My best friend spent the day with me today, sitting on the couch in my new room, chain smoking and giving me Hell for becoming someone who I’m not.
I led another life a long time ago, and I don’t wish to divulge any information about that other life other than at this point, I had everything I ever wanted, every dream come true. Shortly thereafter it all blew up in my face, leaving me a steaming mess of debris that needed to be picked up and carted away.
I’m not sure how you go about getting over the past. Sometimes I’m not sure how to go about getting over the present.
My best friend is a wonderful friend in that when everything goes to Hell, she tells it exactly like it is, with whatever amount of harshness is required. She said today that I need to move on, I need to get over this person I’ve become and go back to being the old me. Its been a number of years now, and its time to move forward.
Surprisingly, the truth didn’t hurt too much today. I find that usually the truth stings as though you’ve just ground salt into an open wound, but today it all sank in and made perfect sense.
I suppose I’m just writing today to sing the praises of being surrounded by wonderful people. I really needed to hear what my best friend had to say, and I think I’m probably a better person for it.
Sometimes being beaten about the ears with a big old stick of truth turns out to be the best thing to happen to you since prescription sedatives and beer.
May 17th, 2007 at 1:31 pm
“I’m not sure how you go about getting over the past. Sometimes I’m not sure how to go about getting over the present.”
I know how that feels. I so know how that feels. When I get this way (and I am, today) I concentrate on “five minutes at a time.” We can do anything for five minutes … so be that other person for five minutes at a time and see what happens.
Or punch your best friend for five minutes and see what happens!
(My best friend MissDee is the same way with me!)