Directions…
At this point in writing here, I’m not really sure where to go. My head is overflown with topic matter, but I’m just not sure as to how I should proceed to make it the most effective for those who are interested.
I’ve decided not to make this site about depression in and of itself. For one thing, I tend to think that things like “Some signs of depression are….” I mean, yes, we all need to know about signs and symptoms, but its’ already been done. Further, the signs and symptoms are so individual to the person that I really don’t want to have to make generalizations, lest someone take my word as gospel.
Further, I’d like to make this site about my own journey, with looking back type insights and so forth along the way. I’d like to share the story of a person who came out of a wonderfully loving, happy, stable family ended up so crazed and maniacal. I really don’t think it makes any sense. But then, so much in this life doesn’t make sense at all. The problem here is, do I really want the internet to know about my life? Do I care? Does it bother me to think that someone could potentially search ‘Depression’ and end up knowing the intimate details of me and who I am?
Which leads me to another part of me: Does my depression and anxiety define me? Have I created a definition of myself based on being crazed and maniacal? Is it wrong for me to identify myself publicly and online as someone who’s got some issues with her sanity? Should I be ashamed, or at least less vocal?
I’m hoping that the content doesn’t seem too dry or lacking in the coming days as I formulate a plan as to how I want to convey the information I have. At any rate, please know that I’m working my hardest to make sure that the place stays interesting and that the information is posted in some sort of logical fashion.
Amanda
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