Is This All There Is To Life?
Go to school. Hate it. Get a job. Hate it. Pay the bills. Hate it. Then perhaps have a few years of retirement where you finally have time for what you want to do, but can’t because of the problems of an aging body. So, you spend 99.9% doing what you don’t want to do and .01% of what you do want to do.
Is this all there is to life? No wonder there are so many people with major depression. And if you already have major depression or are on the down cycle of bipolar disorder, then looking at everyday life and back over your own life and the life of your parents can make you want to curl up under the covers and never some back out.
There Is More To Life
Although it might sound incredible, there is far more to life than holding down a steady job and making a lot of money. But if you have major depression (or any other type of depression), you won’t be able to see all of the other ingredients that up the minnestrone soup of life. This is because the depression is like an eyelash across your eyeball — it hurts so that you can’t see much of anything.
So, first off, you need to try and get better. Leave the heavy “meaning of life” questions for later. The more you try and find them now, the more of a hole you’ll dig yourself into. When you have depression, you can’t sleep well and are more prone to illnesses and can’t concentrate. You need to let yourself have the luxury of taking the time to get better before you can start butting neads with Christopher Hitchens and/or the Dalai Lama.
It Finds You
Finding some sort of point to life — even finding a job that doesn’t want to make you vomit — takes a long time to find. Some people are born knowing exactly what they want to do in life and then there’s the other 99% of us. If you get your health in order, and then tend to making sure you get enough food and a roof over your head, the heavy duty questions of life seem to answer themselves.
One day, you stumble upon what you want to do with your life, even if it doesn’t have anything to do with money. Maybe it’s doing charity work or pursuing creative arts (which don’t pay well, believe me). Somehow, it finds you when you’re not really looking to hard for it.
Hope this helps.
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