It has happened…
I rode the Chestnut Thoroughbred on Friday morning, and it was everything I had hoped it would be. It was more, even, because I got to ride him in a ring and then I was given the opportunity to go for a hack with him and his owner. We had a lovely time, a lovely chat, and I really felt that I got a good opportunity to meet and understand the horse before making a decision.
He arrived at the Ranch house Sunday afternoon. His first hours here have been lovely: He seems to be getting along nicely. We had a lovely ride together and now he is tucked away in his new stall for the night.
I’ve heard people speak of passion in terms of dealing with anxiety issues and depression. If you can create something in your life that you have a passion for, the ick that exists seems easier to deal with.
I’ve always been an incredibly passionate person. I’m passionate about my music, about writing, about the people who are important players in my life. I suppose with all that to be passionate about, I probably shouldn’t feel like I want one more: But I do.
I am passionate about this horse, about me returning to the ring, about my big ol’ butt getting back in the saddle. Perhaps it can help to stave off The Crazy that much longer. If not?
It will certainly be worth its while regardless of whether I lose my mind again or not.
Depression, Fighting Depression, Horseback Riding, Equestrian, New Horse, Passion

June 11th, 2007 at 11:40 am
1. You should have a naming contest for HorseMan. *nods*
2. You should take a picture of HorseMan and show us his beauty.
Glad that you’re finding some passion in your life again … hopefully the ick will hide now. *hugs*
June 11th, 2007 at 3:12 pm
It certainly sounds like you are happy with your new horse, Amanda.
Congratulations and enjoy!
June 11th, 2007 at 3:56 pm
Stick with something you love and enjoy, the Crazy won’t have a chance! Speaking as a fellow depression sufferer, when you evoke more thoughts of happiness and joy into your every day activities - there just isn’t room for sadness.